You changed your mind. I changed mine a dozen times. Still end up in the same place. Still end up falling flat on my face. For once I'd like to decide And measure out the reasons why I keep holding a space for you. No matter what you do--or don't do. Mr. Cowboy, I'm sure you know a way out. Mr. Cowboy, surely you have methods to shut it all down. Mr. Cowboy, you're poorly cast, I see it now. You're poorly cast, I see it now. You feel nothing. And I feel your nothing. Turns it into something new, Turns it into a thing that you do. And you do, you do it to me. And you do, obviously. And you do, and you do. It's not me, it's you. Mr. Cowboy, I'm sure you know a way out. Mr. Cowboy, surely you have methods to shut it all down. Mr. Cowboy, you're poorly cast, I see it now. You're poorly cast, I see it now. You're poorly cast, I see it now.

Tore up the love letter I wrote to you in my sleep. Tossed it in the river, now The river will keep it to itself. The river will keep it to itself. Woke up in your backyard With bare feet, metaphorically. Looked up at the stars and I know that they will keep this to themselves. I know that they will keep this to themselves. If you're not telling, I'm not telling. I'm not telling.

Every mistake I make is a mistake I choose, But it's the other I. It's the other I tonight. Every worry I feel is a worry I choose, But it's the other I. It's the other I tonight. Watching that blinking light. And I will never meet her, But if I could, I'd say: Calm down, calm down, calm down. Every chance you don't take is a chance you lose. It was always you, my girl. It was always you. Every day you stay asleep is a day you lose. It was always you, my girl. It was always you. You and that blinking light. And I will never meet you, But if I could, I'd say: Wake up, wake up, wake up. Wake up, wake up, wake up. Wake up calm down wake up calm down wake up wake up.

I can't find a way out. The ceiling caving in, The pipes dripping, Asking me, "Why are you still here?" I can't find a way down From the tower I'm locked in. My hair is growing thin, Asking me, "Why are you still here?" I don't think I can make it from this height And I don't think I can stand it another night. Sitting around watching birds fly. If they can do it, why can't I? Why am I still here? Why do I still care? Sitting around watching birds fly. It's just not in the cards for me at this time And it's definitely not happening tonight. In a way, I'm already in the sky. Even if the clouds blot out the stars at night, In my way, I'm already in the sky.

Please turn out the lights. I wanna see the world outside the apartment. Don't want to see my face reflected, Not tonight. You said: "Guarda la luna," it's so much smaller than you. "Guarda la luna," let it rotate around you, too. "Guarda la luna." Please be very quiet. It's hard enough we can't control what's around us. Just want to hear the sounds The girls make in their sleep. You said: "Guarda la luna," it's so much smaller than you. "Guarda la luna," let it rotate around you, too. "Guarda la luna." I just wanna be tiny like that little moon You are always pointing to. I just wanna be slient in the dark of night, Let that shimmering blue light cover everything--even me. Even me. You said: "Guarda la luna," it's so much smaller than you. "Guarda la luna," let it rotate around you, too. "Guarda la luna."

Baby, do you think that I'm a failure? I'm trying, in my way. Baby, do you think that I can get it together Before it's too late? Still got time, still got time, Tomorrow and today. Still got time, still got time, To get in my way. Baby, I've been thinking about the future. I'm trying, in my way. Baby, I wanna live forever. Forever and a day. Still got time, still got time, Tomorrow and today. Still got time, still got time, To get in my way. To get in my way. Singing hallelujah, hallelujah, To my thoughts. Singing hallelujah, hallelujah, To my thoughts. Still got time to get off. Still got time to get off. Still got time, still got time, Tomorrow and today. Still got time, still got time, To get in my way. To get in my way.

Bring your own ghost To the party, to the ceremony. I know I've got mine, I'm never lonely. Their eyes poking out Through holes in white sheets. Ghost burns, just like everything. Bring your own ghost to me, And I'll bring mine. Don't be afraid that every step you take Is a grave, is a grave, is a grave. Don't be afraid that every step you take Is a grave, is a grave, is a grave. Don't be afraid. I've got all we need To light up the trees: Gasoline, you, and me. We won't be lonely. Don't flinch away from The flames at your feet. Absence burns, just like everything. Bring your own ghost to me, And I'll bring mine. Don't be afraid that every step you take Is a grave, is a grave, is a grave. Don't be afraid that every step you take Is a grave, is a grave, is a grave. Don't be afraid. I dug them shallowly, They come out when they please. Then you'll see and I'll see Them burn all way. Burn all away, burn all away, Just like we will someday. Burn it all away, burn it all, Burn it all away.

If there's a winner here, It's probably not me. I'm not a lefty. Never taken anyone by surprise. Every letter I wrote to you, I sent. Told myself, "At least then ..." At least I could say I tried. At least I could say I Didn't go down without a fight. At least I could say I tried. I didn't go down, didn't go down Soft and quiet, soft and quiet. If there's a winter here, It's probably sweltering. I put up curtains. Strung the ceiling up with fairy lights. Every hurt I felt, I said. Told myself, "At least then ..." At least I could say I tried. At least I could say I Didn't go down without a fight. At least I could say I tried. I didn't go down, didn't go down Soft and quiet, soft and quiet.

It's all right if we can't go outside. I've got my mind, I've got my mind, All the time. I'm training to survive, Should it come to that. Of course it's a lie. I'm lazy, I'm hazy, I'm fading away. If I could only reach A certain kind of melancholy, I'd be queen. Queen of the cardboard jungle. Queen, queen, Queen of the cardboard jungle. It's fine with me if you want to leave. You're not the first, you're not the last, Guaranteed. Every timeline coexists in my mind. Who I wanna see at the dance is: You and you and you and you, And you and you and you and, You and you and you and you. If I could only reach A certain kind of melancholy, I'd be queen. Queen of the cardboard jungle. Queen, queen, Queen of the cardboard jungle.

On a blessed night with you, The sky is clear and we can see For miles and miles and miles. There's no one else around. The stars come out for you and I... I'm not a millionaire but I could be one, right? I'm not a millionaire but The stars shine for me at night. I'm not a millionaire but I can see the light, see the light, see the light. One a blessed night with you, We're both high and we can't stop Laughing laughing laughing laughing. The air is sharp and cool And we're due for snowfall tonight. I'm not a millionaire but I could be one, right? I'm not a millionaire but I am quite high. I'm not a millionaire but You shine for me, don't you? You're a star. No, you're a snowflake. I catch you on my tongue, Make you warm, liquid, and fun. I'm not a millionaire but I can taste you on my tongue. I can taste you on my tongue. Look up. On a blessed night with you, We can eat and drink and Never ever feel full. We sleep a full eight hours. When the alarm sounds, I snooze, and hold you. I'm not a millionaire but I could be one, right? I'm not a millionaire but Look at us in our cocoon. I'm not a millionaire but Look at us look at us look at us so warm and soft. I'm not a millionaire but If I was, I imagine the world would end. I'm not allowed, I can't even pretend. I'm only given enough. I'm only given enough, enough. The stars, The moon, And you you you you you you you. Look up.

Field trips in grade school were impossible. Unless another parent paid the way. Probably bought my lunch, too, And I never felt ashamed. Somebody owes me, Somebody owes me, It's true. Somebody owes me, Even if it's not you. If you wanna give something to me, I'll take it. I don't have a lot myself. So give me all your scraps And your misfit toys, too. Somebody owes me, Somebody owes me, It's true. Somebody owes me, And you'll do. I won't feel grateful. I've never been thankful. Somebody owes me, Somebody owes me, It's true. Somebody owes me, And the rent is due.

The cards say I'm gonna be all right. As long as I can take control of my life. The cards say, "This is what you're dealt. This is what you're dealing with. As long as you're alive, You're more than past and present." I have to make a choice And live with it. Something has to die Me or this life. I always start out great. And never got used to trying at anything. My younger self would say, "This is what you've done, This is what you keep doing. As long as you're alive, The work persists unfinished." I have to make a choice And live with it. Something has to die Me or-- I have to make a change And stick to it. I always was a Bright little kid. I have to make a choice And live with it. Something has to die Me or this life.